Monday, June 25, 2012

An incomplete story :-(

 Are you crazy?how can you be so rude?you are still an egoistic and arrogant girl,who only thinks about herself."

It was a dark night and there harsh conversations were adding more darkness to that night.she was in full mood of fighting and angrily yelled "you don't have time for me anymore.you must be with some other girl".He was stunned for a minute and then replied with heavy heart "Are you kidding?how can you blame me though you know that you don't have time for me these days.I can't be with someone else,each and every person in my surrounding knows about you including my siblings but its you who is on safer side.you can pick any guy when you need.you are going to leave me one day".
"oh!dammit you know this.you are right actually.i am bored of you and your talks,go and find someone else..huh,i don't need you anymore".
"Boring?now,i am boring for you.fine,find someone interesting for yuorself .I just wish I could have knew at least the real you,still best wishes for your future.you are free.i am leaving bye(sobbing)".


He turned back and start moving in opposite direction with heavy heart and 101% surety that she will stop him within two minutes but she didn't.she was freezing there in the cold feeling stranded, abandoned alone with an internal thought"don't go please,you are the best part of my life".



Suddenly i realized its not a movie or a drama,its a real love scene,two love birds are separating. My mind was rewinding like an old cassette tape, but not a tape that is worth listening to over again. It is a tape filled with songs with empty lyrics. . But they fill the soul with nothing, they fill the heart with nothing. Songs whose lyrics are thinly laced together with vowels, sounds, and generic rhymes that boast no intelligence and walk down trails that have been uncovered before.
I took a step towards her "Jesus, Stop him!" I cried by looking at her with my tensed looks.
 "Are you out of your mind?just because I appreciated you on your every step doesn't mean that i'm always like that",i said skeptically."I just don't know what i am doing with him but yeah i am damn sure that its for his benefits". Nothing throbbed like knowing my  mind is a safer place than reality, knowing that the things my heart desired would never be mine.
Are you crazy?how can you be so rude?you are still an egoistic and arrogant girl,who only thinks about herself."go,stop him,he loves you very much and loosing you is not at all count as his beneficiary and you know that."why are you acting like a dumbo?"i said annoyingly.you are right i am selfish but i am helpless too.her voice melts my heart, she looked at me and i noticed the Flowing tear .drops of desire and broken wishes. Each drop spills from her sapphire eyes, ashamed and cold. Her heart believed it all, put each ounce of hope into the promises of her mind.I was unflappable,wordless felt like someone was banging my head with a iron rod and i was unable to complain or defend.
" I don't know what I really want anymore. I just wish I could stop loving him. I wish I could change everything.I don't think I will be able to take it. What will I do when I find out that after years of waiting, he still won't be mine. I will certainly die. If the thought is so painful, what will happen when it actually happens" she said in a mourning(regretted )voice.
"He wont be yours if you won't stop him please its the right time go and stop him,you two are made for each other".managed myself and yelled.
"No Adi i cant,actually i don't want to.let him go.He is one of the best creature of god and he deserves someone better than me.I will stuck on my decision"she said with a fake smile."Deserving and non-deserving words never matter in true love,you are just faking it to yourself"don't spoil two lives due to this incessant attitude,i shouted.
"I am suborn,insensitive,heartless whatever you want to call me you can because its true"I am Idiot" she screamed.I felt her tribulation(sadness) "don't worry dear everything will be OK,you are strong girl"i wiped her tears.but it worked reversely and she started crying more fleetly and silently.But her silence was reciting a poem:-

"For him, I really care;
I love him,
And the time we shared.
But its over now,
Time to move on;
Time to leave the past,
A new life has begun.
We both have reasons,
We both know why;
Lets let things go,
Before I start to cry.
This way we can part,
Maybe one day;
We can be just friends,
Who’s to say.
I will always,
Keep him in my heart;
But circumstances have,
Torn us apart.
So this is it,
Time to go.

I know that she can't be in love again cause you can't love two person at the same time and she can't stop loving that guy whom she always considered as hers first priority.Still i want to tell her that
"Your tears will initiate the process of healing and whether you believe it right now or not, one day, you will fall in love again. Then again, everything happens for a reason ... what's meant to be, is meant to be.My best wishes are always with you"





1 comment:

  1. I hope you'd complete it. Soon. And let me put a smile here. :)

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